I’m sitting here in Kirkland, WA… and my body is here, my mind is here. I know that I am MEANT to be here right now. My love of my life is here, the love of my belly is here. The rest of my heart is in Utah. My system is in two different realms of living right now. Here and there. Heart and head.

I’ve been dreaming of finding the core ideas to take my passion to where I always wanted it to be. Had I not come to WA, I would not have found the answers. If I was in Utah, I’d have a million places to use these new tools. But here – it’s all new. Here and there. Heart and head.

In Utah I would be knocking on doors and shaking my bootay tomorrow with Chalene Johnson in Park City. Here I’ll be rushing around, and shaking my head at the traffic. Here and there. Heart and head.

Here I am meeting new people, taking on new challenges, learning to stand on my own. In Utah I would supported by my amazing friends, counting on my community and branching out slowly. Here and there. Heart and head.

It’s okay to be here, and it’s okay to dream about there. It’s okay to want that, while learning to be this. I think that sometimes we have to be in two places at once – I am stretched across the rainbow bridge. In Norse mythology, Bilröst is a burning rainbow bridge that reaches between Midgard (the world) and Asgard, the realm of the gods. According to the Prose Edda, the bridge ends in heaven. And so being so close to two realms, is indeed where we all live on most days anyway. We have one foot firmly on Earth with the moments we are living right now. Connecting with people that we meet and are geographically closest too. Then we have one hand reaching to the Heaven’s trying to attain our dreams and holding onto something of the ones who have gone on before us. Here and there. Heart and head.

Although I have days like this where I’m feeling a little lost being here, it’s okay. It doesn’t matter what people say, And it doesn’t matter how long it takes, Believe in yourself and you’ll fly high, And it only matters how true you are, Be true to yourself and follow your heart.

Life is changing. I am going to have to re-learn how to fly, and I have everything I need … Here and there… Heart and hand. When I’m standing in the dark… I still believe.

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Over the past, jumping to conclusions – well I’ve seen how that road goes. People in this day and age are just ready to go after you because they’ve been hurt, they been used, they’ve learned that the way to get ahead is my letting trust go out the window. I think it’s a sad that we’ve let go of the open heart that we were born with.

I personally am an open book – and that can be hard at times because I’m willing to let it go the first time you run my over in the parking garage with your Hummer. The second time I may start to question things. The third time I’m just going to bring myself to the realization that I’ve been had and you really wanted to run me over. I’ve not always been that way. As a young woman I felt like I had to fight for everything – but as I started giving more to others – I found that giving was far better than receiving. I found that when I had a full heart, my heart was open to becoming even fuller.

This Christmas we helped a wonderful family of girls – ages 4, 8 and 16. They had been living in the homeless shelter with their grandmother and when she had “things” happen they went to live with the Great Aunt. The Aunt already having two children at home, and two children she is responsible for that have just both had babies – she didn’t know what to do for Christmas. My sister told me about this and I posted on Facebook. Before long my phone was ringing. Friends of friends just wanting to step up and help these children that they would most likely never meet. Just wanting to give and jump out there and help. I think that this is a lesson that when you jump with an open heart – with nothing to gain — with no reason for it — you fly high. When you jump with a hardness, with blinders on, with no sense of trust in your heart you fall flat on your behind. I would counsel that you stop, and appreciate the little things – ask others how you can help them, ask yourself how you can JUMP today as you move one day closer to 2010. Open hearts receive – closed hearts are empty.

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